Changes

Heh. Been a very long time since I posted anything on this blog. I dunno if anyone actually reads this, so if you do, then thank you and well, yeah, let's get things started. Been meaning to do a post on this word for a while.

Changes.


Given that college is almost done (what the heck...) and that now I need to go off and find a job, its time to openly reflect on things, what is going on, what has changed, all that good stuff.

My first year, I showed up to Wash U as an architecture student. At this point, I forget how it happened, but I also showed up to ACF instead of getting involved in KSA. Rather interesting shift, but as I said, I don't remember a damn thing about why or how I got involved in ACF. Maybe Joyce or somebody else suggesting it, but who knows. Fast forward to today, and I'm actively involved in the group on worship team, and have actually started giving a damn about faith, God, etc.

My first year, I showed up as a "twinkie" (you all should know what this means, but if you don't, yellow on the outside, white on the inside), and now I've virtually become significantly nationalistic, but not with respect to America, but with respect to Korea, and more significantly, not to the North or the South, but considering the nation as divided. In this case, I think its interesting to note that there is a very large Korean international pop. here and that seeing it probably induced me a bit to learn more about where I'm from, and who I am by blood, beyond just upbringing. It's really odd to say this, but in becoming Korean, I seem to have traded one set of issues for another. I've begun intentionally assimilating as much in the way of Korean attitudes and mannerisms as possible, and this includes the fact that for the short-mid term, I have become all of a sudden unwilling to date anyone who is not Korean by blood. On the one hand, there is the practical application, aka the fact that there is still a prejudice against mixed-blood Koreans in Korea, so if I move there, it would be best for my children if they were pure Korean, so as not to suffer from any discrimination or such, but on the other hand, there is a little bit of absorbing the attitudes that are sometimes behind that as well. That part is probably not a good thing, but we have to see what happens.

More to follow